The Eden Evolution

In the past few years, it’s become increasingly obvious just how much I differ from the younger version of myself. In some ways, this is a natural part of growth and maturity, but I often long for the outspoken, adventurous, social, and creative person that I used to be. I sometimes wonder if I’ve let go of integral aspects of my character, only to be left with a watered-down version of myself.

I once heard Issac Curry propose a new perspective on the verses found in Matthew 7:21-23, where people who claim to have done great deeds in God’s name are denied by God. He says, “I never knew you.” Issac really got me to thinking when he said something to the effect of, “Have you ever considered that may you evolved into a version of yourself that is so far from God’s intended masterpiece that you have become unrecognizable to Him?”

This prompted me to ask myself some difficult questions. Have I evolved in the past decade ? Or have I regressed into a shell of the woman that I was called to be? The reason I asked myself these questions is because there are isolated moments where I find myself speaking and acting with great confidence that could only come from God. However, the majority of the time, I find myself either struggling to believe that I am equipped to accomplish even the simplest of tasks or wishing I had the confidence to do the things I truly long to do—perhaps, the things God ordained for me to do.

With the help of the Holy Spirit, I believe that I’m being called to release (the weights that do not serve me), revive (the talents that have laid dormant), and receive (the new things God wants to bless me with). This is my personal journey back to Eden, back the version of myself that God knew before He formed me in my mother’s womb.